Apathy - Agent of Destruction

Well after two previously otiose posts I think it is time to move on to more worthwhile topics, and one such topic is the issue of not giving a shit about anything, or to be succinct, apathy.

Apathy, a word that has had such a profound impact in my life these last couple of weeks. What's apathy you may ask? Well the Merriam-Webster online dictionary describes it as
1. lack of interest or concern
2. lack of feelings or emotion

Well my kind of apathy relates to the first definition, such things like exams and university applications, problems with friends and teachers, problems in my studies and college have led me to the brink of insanity. That is until i stumbled upon this wonderful word I found while surfing through the internet, apathy, a state of disinterest, i was truly intrigued, intrigued by the fact that I can release myself from the clutches of teen life. I mean let's face it its not exactly a walk in the park being a teen, and the whole idea of being totally indifferent to whatever may happen is like the drug I've been searching for.

I shared this new discovery with one of my friend who incidentally also stumbled upon this theory at about the same time as I did. Both of us were similar in many ways, both teens in the middle of their exams, at the crossroads of our young life, both of us trying to figure out a way to find a solution to our teenage angst. Now my friend, Shravan, embraced it more readily than I did mainly because of the kind of conditioning we Chinese kids undergo from our parents, being taught about the responsibilities we have to the family and to ourselves. But as time went on I got accustomed to not giving a shit about the happenings in my life, things like exams and university just couldn't cause me any consternation. It was like I had a new lease of life, it truly felt like a weight has been lifted from my thoroughly exhausted shoulders, I could go on with life without being bothered by my responsibilities and other such bullshit.

But sadly not unlike all the drugs out there apathy has it's side effects, and not particularly nice ones at that. Fogr one thing being indifferent to your studies would mostly like mean bad grades, bad grades would mean not getting into good universities, and not getting into good universities would mean not having a bright future in life. Well that's the stereotypical view of most people on the pathway to success and sadly I'm a victim of such a view. And today for some reason I just realised, apathy is not a form of escapism, it is a fucking excuse, an excuse borne out of the greatest evil known to mankind, PROCRASTINATION!!!

But the issue of procrastination is to be left for another post, the main point is anybody foolish enough like myself to be lulled into believing in apathy should be treat it with as much hate as a Jew would treat a Nazi, that is gasing the stupid idea to hell!